30 Days Journal - Day 16

I am a terrible journal-er. As an exercise to become better, I decided to do a 30 day journal challenge for myself. Just like during my quarantine, I am using Isolation Journals for daily journal prompt.

Prompt: Think about a day where you felt a range of emotions—things like joy, frustration, boredom, contentment. Summarize your day through the lens of one of these emotions. Then, choose another emotion, and summarize the same day again.

Emotions are more all over the place when I don’t have much to do on that day. Nothing official on my schedule makes my mind wonder and I become more “out of control”. When I am busy, I have little time to keep in tune with my emotions. Of course like every woman, I do notice my moods get radically different during certain of the months than the other times.

I will describe one of my last few days at my last job. Everyday in my last job is relative incoherent and chaotic. If I was younger then I would my anxiety level would be at 9000, but through out my years I learn to tackle these sporadic anxiety through various ways that I reduced my anxiety level to 3000. I would be happy, bored, frustrated, and then content when I finish with my day.

If my day was happy, even my voice rang a level of happiness. Everything is fine and every fire I have to put out call be easily solved. If my day begins with frustration, even the way I talk to my colleagues my tone is quite short. If my day is boring, then my composure is also so relaxed and not as motivated to get anything completed. I think contentment happens to me when I stop taking things very personally. When I feel unaffected by many things around me.