30 Days Journal - Day 5

I am a terrible journal-er. As an exercise to become better, I decided to do a 30 day journal challenge for myself. Just like during my quarantine, I am using Isolation Journals for daily journal prompt.

Prompt: How do you get past pain? How do you let go of the illusion of control? How do you find meaning?

Time. I personally get past every kind of pain with time, whether physical or emotional or mental - time will heal all. It is difficult at first but it really is just framing everything into perspective. And sometimes when the pain is so great, forgive yourself and take time off is much need it. I think for me, letting go of the illusion of control was very difficult. But time over and over again has taught me, there is no need to fret on things you cannot control over. Whatever the result is, think about possible ways to work with the result you got. I think this was already addressed in my first blog about “When Life Throw you Lemons …”. So many lemons has come my way, I sometimes wander if I am walking past a lemon tree orchid. Life is unpredictable. We were all taught that to get from point A to point B - probably asked you to calculate the velocity you should travel to get there at the time - but I want to say most people’s live go through this crazy spiral drawing that society didn’t really prepare you for, but as long as you don’t lose sight of point B - you will get there eventually.

How do you find meaning? To be honest, I don’t know. I don’t even really know what the meaning of life is. But I know what is meaningful to me - whether it is in my personal life or my professional development, I know what means a lot and what means very little. The things that matters a lot, will be meaningful a year from now, 5 years from now, 10 years from now - sometimes they change priority over time but they still hold some meaning. The things that matter less, I can’t even quite tell you what it feels like to me a week ago.